I'll Always Be There

i love this song and the message it sends. to my friends that includes you Chanel you pitiful girl and i don't Care what you say Chanel your my friend and because your my friends I'll always be there for you get it so accepts my good will and lets move on from what we were talking about for a year and 1/2 and concentrate on the now and the future.

i get it

well lately i don't have much to blog about but that happens to everyone like emailing someone writing a book or writing a blog. i get it writers block happen to everyone like me,Chanel well anyone so do worry to much about it. so going on to something else i don't know what that something is. most of my blogs were about Chanel  and some about Madison some of my blogs were hurtful and some were sweet and kind some of the sweet one Chanel commented on which was nice Chanel stopped emailing me which i thought that meant are friendship was over but that's not the case she just stopped emailing me because she said Jaron I don't know what to say anymore so this will be my last email to you. after she said this i thought to myself what have i done i should of never sent that last email but after she sent this i sent her another email and wile i was writing it i was starting to cry i sent it but no response i don't know why i can't move on i try and try but it was no good i also tryed to honer her wishes and value and honer are friendship but i failed that to if i just listened to her when she said stop emailing me so much things wouldn't be the way they are now I'm a idiot wishing to see her again after all this time its a dumb wish it will never happen now. I'm just so tired of missing her and Maddy all the time and sometime crying in my room because i miss them so i just want and need to be at peace now i can't be why do i wast my time with this Chanel doesn't care my wish will never be fulfilled now bye for now I'll be happier next time maybe