other list other year

OK time to make other list for this years but let's see if i can do some of them time will tell haha well lets start I've got work soon so i have not that much time. anyway here we go
 (1) try to get my license
 (2) try to get my own sweet camera 
 (3) try to vist friends who live in canada
 (4) try to vist chanel and maddy and their family. this one is always on my list :)
 (5) try to have another birthday party
 (6) go to devon's wedding. here's hoping she or he doesn't get cold feet like the last time
 (7) try to convinc chanel and maddy to go to waterton with me. well if i get my license and the money to go and them thats if they want to go with me that is
(8) have a big camping trip to waterton with my friends and their friends wouldn't be fair to not invite them too.
well here's the list i can probably do all of them in a year. we will see what happens. well anyways chow for now

i don't know yet

well today was the same old thing got up did my paper route got home checked my facebook checked my Emails and checked blogger to see whats happening. This is mostly what my day is like and trying to get Chanel to talk to me again. why am i trying so hard to get her to talk to me again. see this is the thing most of my memories are of Chanel  and a little memory of Maddy and other friends but mostly Chanel. i ask myself why. why am i thinking only about her why do i need to try so hard to talk to her and to get her to notes me and stuff. why is she so important i know shes like a sister to me that's true. i started to have dreams about her a year after we moved to Raymond now the dreams are more freq went now not every month more like every few month's. maybe it will freak her out to know that i dream about her it probably would. it would probably make her uncomfortable to hear that. but probably people who red my blogs probably ask themselves is he in love with her or something and the thing is i don't really know it thought kinda scars me. the whole what if doesn't love me back what if are friendship gets totally destroyed because of it  what she hates me oh I'm so confused. i honestly love her to much to not let are friendship go but i need to think on the other love part because i still don't know. the only thing i hop won't happen is that this blog won't scare chanel off for good thats all

good year

well this year or last year it the forth of January.It wasn't haft bad Devon went to New York city or close to there to visit his girlfriend for Christmas and new years. I of Coors stead home for Christmas but before that i went with Megan and Gina to a movie called jack and Jill it was a Weird show but fun Megan toke me home after. Gina came for the ride she was on the phone with her mom in the back seat. anyway it was fun being with them. and there was also Ryan's home coming which was great we spent the whole day talking about star wars Ryan talk about going back to school which he already is him and me remotest about well friendship and that time when he told my a secret and i told and he got really pist at me but when we talked about that day we laugh. well he is well my best friends. Megan,Gina and Ryan are the best of the best. here comes the new year i hope chanel and maddy well talk to me again and start a new friendship heres hoping. nothing beats friends or as i call them family. nothing but love for ya peace hahaha